My wandering mind...

I really honestly don't care if anyone really reads this.
I need a place where I can let my mind wander. Everyone has to bitch once in a while right?

Sometimes Myspace and Facebook blogs just don't do it.

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First entry's gonna be deep:

I've realized who I am lately.
I've also realized who the people around me are lately.

What I've learned:
People need to stop judging people without anything to back their ideas up with. I'm real. If I wanted to be fake, I'd conform. I don't take people for granted. Sometimes I take myself for granted. If I come off as taking you for granted or using you, I'm sorry. I don't mean to. I've been used, and lately a lot. I want to live up to expectations, but I'm tired of proving myself. Take that for a paradox.

I know who I am. If you can't take me for who I am, fuck you.

I love the Beatles. They're keeping me from going back in a hole that I don't want to fall back in (I would've made a "Fixing a Hole" reference, but I'll let you guys do that)
I love Hanson. They pulled me out of that hole 5 years ago.
I love hockey. It's been filling the void that softball left. Competiton is my favorite
I cry when they hoist the Stanley Cup... even the red wings.
I'm not meant to be understood.
Jealousy happens. But I never do it in relationships.
I'm in love with the idea of being in love.
I'm terrified of the future sometimes. But I might as well enjoy the ride.
It freaks me the hell out when I see someone I know on the television.
I'm not "one of them." I'm just me.

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I started a song. Chorus is written. Verses are coming in slowly but surely.

I'm somebody's daughter
I'm somebody's friend
I hope I'll be someone's one and only
Till the very end
I'm a simple little girl
Being all she can be
But don't you understand
I can only be just me.

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There. What's been on my mind lately. More in depth eventually. might even put up the song once its written.